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Anniversary Night

hisbelovedslave — Mon, 21 Jun 2010 02:21:26 +0000

Master and beloved celebrated our first anniversary this whole weekend. It was the best weekend of beloved’s life. The kids were gone for the weekend, and beloved was off the weekend. It was just Master and beloved at home. It started when beloved got home from work just after midnight Friday night. Master had well-planned that night. slave stripped, we showered, and it took off from there. Master hadn’t had the chance to treat beloved as the slut she is for her Master like that in a long time-kids. she felt so good, being able to please Master and make Him happy. Being able to be Master’s slut/whore like that made slave feel herself again. The flogging was long and intense mixed with many other pleasurable things. Three hours later, we headed to bed. That Saturday afternoon, we went to La Fortress. We had never been there. It was a great experience, a great learning experience. We played a little, but mostly watched and took in all that was going on. One day, soon perhaps, we will play like that also there. Some of the things that happened there were quite arousing. Perhaps we are still a little shy about public play.

How did slave feel about this weekend? Did she like or dislike anything? These are two questions posed to slave tonight. The first thought is that she wishes it could have lasted longer. She mostly wishes she didn’t have a visitor this weekend, a little bummer. slave felt alive this weekend-more true to herself, more true to her Master. It is hard to do with the kids. Don’t get beloved wrong, she loves them very much and would never change anything about that. We just have to be more careful around them. They are only 8 and 10. Anyway, slave did not dislike anything about this weekend, except for the aforementioned. slave could not imagine our anniversary weekend being better than it was. slave only hopes that she pleased her Master to the best of her ability. It has all gotten better with time and continues to get better every day. Couldn’t imagine not being with Master and pleasing Him. slave loves her Master more and more every day. Happy Anniversary, Master-forever.

Regular Performance Review

hisbelovedslave — Sat, 06 Feb 2010 14:50:58 +0000

It has been a while since slave has been able to journal. The kids are tracked out but won’t go back until Thursday. slave has a little time before she has to get ready and leave for work. Master wants slave to journal about her thoughts on a regular performance review-positive and negative-and why, and what things should be included. This is tough for slave because slave sees this as being tested and graded. That scares slave. she usually does not do well on tests. she knows this is different though. It still scares slave. Being reviewed on her performance will help her to be a better slave for her Master. The negative would be having to hear all of her shortcomings. Master has ways of making even bad reviews good in the end. What should be included in the review? Perhaps her mannerisms, her tending to Master’s needs, making sure Master has everything He needs for work, home, and play, her domestic chores are some of the areas that could be included. The domestic chores is where slave would probably be rated the lowest. It is not easy some times. slave knows that there is always room for improvement.

Ugh…. time to get ready for work. Love You, Master, and thank You.

Timeline of slave’s Submission

hisbelovedslave — Tue, 26 Jan 2010 12:53:34 +0000

In the beginning of our relationship in this lifestyle, which was a little over a year and a half ago, we could only be part time because we were not living together. During that time, we were more structured, for obvious reasons. We did not have slave’s kids there. slave would ask permission to come in, strip, put her chains on, and wait for her Master. she did not wear clothes while she was there, with only one exception, when it was just Master and slave there. Since our time together there was limited, we worked on protocol and pleasing Master. slave did do some chores around Master’s place when time permitted. A few times, slave was able to spend the night, even if Master was working. On those nights, Master had a list of chores for slave to do. Master did have slave text Him asking permission to potty, unless He was sleeping. Sometimes slave had a different number to text. That is a different story though. Things are less structured now that we are married, and slave’s two kids are living with us, of course. Master calls slave “beloved” when around other people. The kids even call her that sometimes. slave calls Him “Dear Sir” when around others. slave has slipped up a few times and called Him “Master” around the kids. slave does not think they heard her though. It is very hard working on protocol, being involved with some of the basics that we used to do since the kids are around. When they are at school or at a relative’s house, we try to get back to protocol, being naked, sometimes wearing chains. The sexual aspects of the lifestyle are limited as well. We do not do any of that when the kids are here. They like to pretend to be asleep. slave still does chores around the house. Master does help with that sometimes. Sometimes slave is just exhausted when she gets home, though that is no excuse. When texting, slave always refers to Him as Master and still asks permission to potty. she refers to herself as slave or beloved. slave wants in her heart to do much more, be much more for her Master. Where does slave want to see the submission aspect of our relationship go? slave wants to someday be able to live more openly. she wants to be able to have more protocols that can be followed even when around the kids. Eventually, when the kids are grown and out, we can get back to how the protocols were and even more. That is another 10 years or so. Perhaps in the mean time, we can do some research or talk to others in the lifestyle and find out how they work things with having kids around. slave needs to do better at what she is able to do. she needs to put aside how she is feeling and do what is needed and expected to be done. slave is the type that perhaps does more and does better with lists. Master so loves lists. slave will do better, Master. Thank You for everything, Master. Also, slave is still in awe as to how other’s acted at the TMG meeting. It was nothing like what she expected. There seemed to be very little Master/slave or Dom/sub submission noticeable that night. slave felt a little uncomfortable with that. she knows that everyone is different and expects different things. slave does not want to be like that though, Master. she wants the submission, the protocols. she wants to be more submissive in any way possible. she wants to be the best for her Master. she will need guidance with this though, Master.

A Flogging Story

hisbelovedslave — Mon, 25 Jan 2010 14:08:56 +0000

One night Master decided to do something different to slave. He had slave stand on something, slave does not remember what is was. He duck taped slaves hands to a pull-up bar that was in His doorway. slave was blindfolded, of course. Master began flogging slave. Up to this point, slave had only been flogged while lying down. she could take quite a bit on her back that way. Master was easy at first since this was slaves first time being flogged in this manner. It did not take long before Master began intensifying it. slave learned quickly that the sensation was completely different than when she laid down on her stomach to be flogged. Even though slave could not handle as much painor stinging this way, it felt amazing. Standing there, tied up, helpless, being flogged in this manner, it was overwhelming by the end, but in the best way. It felt more like a release, a cleansing for slave. That was the only time that Master flogged slave like that, as far as standing and being tied up like that. slave thinks Master may have taken a picture of slave standing there like that, not really sure. That was over a year ago. Thank You, Master.

Being a slut vs being His slut

hisbelovedslave — Mon, 25 Jan 2010 01:42:26 +0000

This is not as easy as one would think it would be to journal about. Being Master’s slut has a purpose, has meaning. Being just a slut does not, in this slave’s mind anyway. At first thought, being just a slut would include going from person to person just for the sex and the thrills, which could be dangerous in so many ways. Being Master’s slut is all about Him. It is all about pleasing Master, being and doing whatever He wants, wishes, desires. It is being used by Him, and Him alone, in many wonderful ways. It is a privilege for this slave to be Master’s slut. It is actually an honor, not to be taken lightly or for granted. Thank You for allowing slave to be Your slut, Master.

First TMG Meeting

hisbelovedslave — Sun, 24 Jan 2010 02:48:47 +0000

Last Thursday night was our first TMG meeting. slave was overly nervous. Perhaps so because she did not know what it was going to be like, what to expect. The only advice that slave received was to just be herself and that she would do just fine. About 38 people in all showed up. slave is usually a very quiet person; but in situations like that, she is even more reserved than usual. We were very fortunate to sit across from one of the members of the TMG board. She was very nice and insightful. One of the things that amazed slave was that the other people there were just ordinary people. No one would ever know the lifestyle that we were in just by looking at us. They were all very cordial to us. slaves nerves did settle as the night went on. They were all quite outgoing, full of stories, especially Auburn Goddess. Some of her stories made us laugh and some made Master cringe, even made slave cringe just from the thoughts of what she was saying, ouch!!! When it came time for everyone to introduce themselves, one by one, slave got extremely nervous again. Master, thankfully upon slave’s request, introduced us both. Thank You, Master. It was during that time that slave actually learned who were the Dom’s and who were the subs/slaves. It was a shock at times for slave. she would have never guessed on some of them. slave had a few backwards. slave was truly surprised at how outgoing the submissives were. slave is not trying to say that a submissive cannot be outgoing, but some of them just did not act or seem to be the submissive. Anyway, slave believes that we can learn a great deal from some of the people in this group. They seem to have a lot of knowledge about the lifestyle and a lot of resources as well. Some of them have been friends for many years. It is exciting the think that we could make friends like that who are of the same lifestyle as were are. It is going to be a good thing to have other people to talk to, to get ideas from, to get help and information from. slave is looking forward to all of the possibilities that this group has to offer us. Guess at this point what makes slave nervous is the possibility of going to a “social” at some point in the future. slave is very easily embarrassed. It would be a great learning experience though. slave is very grateful to Master for taking her to her first TMG meeting. slave is looking forward to the next meeting that we are able to attend.

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hisbelovedslave — Sat, 23 Jan 2010 16:32:25 +0000

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